Faith, God's ways and Grown-up Conversations with My Mother

God's ways are perfect.

Now that I am all grown up (well, I'm an adult at least... I'll probably never grow up!) my mom and I have the most wonderful conversations. I truly appreciate her unconditional love and support. She has taught me so much about life and faith and love and being a mother.

But mostly she has taught me about faith.

My mother is the epitome of a faithful woman. During years of uncertainty and struggle, as a single mother of 3 teenage girls, she relied on God (and still does) as her source of strength. She learned to place all her worries and fears in His hands.

He always provided.

Throughout my years of struggle and strife and questioning God and His ways, I was watching my mother. Watching her kind, loving, and forgiving ways. She is always looking for ways to bless the lives of others. Her faith is unwavering.

In 2007 my mom gave me a copy of the book, The Secret.

Being raised Catholic, I was shocked and surprised that my mother believed in the law of attraction, aka the law of love, that The Secret described.

I thought the book was new-agey and sac religious.

At the time I was not even a practicing Catholic, but I knew (or thought I knew) that the concepts presented in The Secret were NOT supported by biblical scriptures. They were pretty much contradictory to everything I had ever been taught about God and religion.

But the book intrigued me.

So... I read it a second time.

And made a list of the things I wanted to attract into my life.

Just to test the ideas being offered in The Secret.

The concepts offered in the book sounded too good to be true. Too magical. Almost childish. The idea that a person could think about how they wanted their life to be... and poof! bring it to reality? Nah. That's the stuff fairy-tales are made of... magical thinking... kids' stuff.

I had no resistance to it though...

I wouldn't tell anyone what I was doing...

I'd make it a game.

Next I made lists of things I wanted. The qualities of the man I'd want to marry. A house. A brand new house. Jewelry. Vacations. Beach vacations. Flowers. Roses. Red roses. A diamond ring. An engagement ring. Another child. A less stressful job.

At that time, all those things seems impossible for me. For the life path I had chosen. I was a young single mother with a very stressful job and a very messy, very complicated relationship with my son's father.

Slowly... and then quickly... all of the things on my list started to appear in my life.

Within a matter of months the items on my list started to trickle into my reality. And within a matter of a couple of years my entire life was completely transformed.

I knew it had worked.

Yet, I still doubted.

I had much more to learn. And I still have much more to learn.

Fast forward to today....

For the last several years, and even more so in the last several months, I have been listening, learning, studying, aligning, and allowing God's ways.

The conversations my mom and I have will occasionally (and lately more often) gravitate to the topic of God and the Holy Spirit and Faith and the Law of Attraction and Love and how Love is the same as the Law of Attraction.

And it is amazing. And aw-inspiring.
The way that all the dots seem to connect.
And at the same time it feels like something I have always known.

The way that all the events in my life, from the time I was a small child, seem to have been leading up to the same thing. The same calling.

To help people. To love. To understand. To teach.

To help others understand the law of love.

To help others understand God's ways.

Live Your Purpose

"The Pathway to your greatest Purpose leads directly through your greatest Fear."

 

 

 

 

Faith, Hope, and LOVE

 

 



 

 Find Your Purpose

 

 

 

 Search for Meaning

 

 

A Search for Meaning...

Last night John suggested that I start writing again.

My darling husband. He listens patiently as I pour my heart out to him. He listens as I tell him (over and over again) that I want more out of life.

My Soul Mate. He knows I feel called to do more and be more in this life. He knows I have a purpose not yet completely uncovered. He knows I want to reach higher levels of spiritual awareness. He knows of my search for meaning. He knows that I have had a life long calling to help people.

 

Ever since I have been a little girl, I have felt called to "help people".

 

Recently, in my adult life, that calling has been growing. The specifics are fuzzy, but this much I know... God has a higher purpose for me.

 

I believe He is calling me to be a teacher for a great number of people. 

 

This is where it gets very humbling. I believe God is calling me to teach people that there is another way to live. I believe God is calling me to teach people that they don't have to live in bondage. They don't have to live in a self-made prison. There is another way.

 

There are many people who feel stuck in their life. They feel stuck in their job. They feel stuck in their marriage. They feel stuck in their circumstances. Suffocated by the reality of their life.

 

Desperately seeking, desperately searching... for meaning in their life.

 

Some have learned to numb the pain. The pain that comes from not living an authentic life. They go on about their business. They go to work. They come home. They go through the motions.

 

They do what they are "supposed" to do. 

 

And they numb the pain.

 

Every day they go through the motions of their life... and somewhere deep in their souls they yearn for more. They yearn to live their purpose. Their passion.

 

God has created each one of us with unique gifts.

 

And He calls us to passionately live a life of purpose, sharing our gift to benefit others.

 

My calling is to teach people how to create their purpose-driven life. To teach people how to mold their lives, much like how a potter molds his clay.

 

I feel called to teach people how to live in the moment. To teach people how to live in peace and love. To teach people how to live an abundant life as is their birth right. Abundance is not found by seeking more things. Abundance already exists in all things.

 

Abundance is experienced by being grateful

Abundance is experienced by being

Abundance is experienced

Abundance is

LOVE

 

My calling is to love.

 

This is a calling I feel humbled to accept. There are many lessons still for me to learn, personally, in my own life. How can I teach others what I do not yet know?

 

My heart, my soul, and my spirit are overflowing with these lessons.

 

John knows this. He believes in me. He sees in me what I have not yet seen in myself. He has faith in me when I do not yet have faith in myself. He supports me in every way and loves me unconditionally.

 

He suggested I start writing again.

And so I am.

Sharing my heart.

Exposing my soul.

 

Inviting you to follow me on a search for meaning...